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Bra Burners-2012 edition

Any reader of feminist history must have come across the term “bra burners” and the related assumptions and myths. All of us know that nothing was burnt, and the iconic title of the protest is a reference to the onset of feminist proclamation of freedom at the 1968 Miss America beauty pageant. Though mistaken and misinterpreted, the issue remained in the history of human memory as a strong demonstration of feminist assertion.

But the other day, I had to witness another kind of bra-burning here in the city of Hyderabad. The modern burners were not photographed and nobody talked about them. They burned bras behind the shadows of the night, so that no one could see them. Probably, even if it was done in bright daylight, they wouldn’t be seen or heard by us and those around- us!

You can have a look at what and how they burned.

Done by some miscreants at Himayatnagar, Hyderabad

I see these burnt advertisements on my morning walks to Husain Sagar, Hyderabad. I kept thinking of the degree of intolerance and perversion represented by these burned images. It was a week ago that I decided to click pictures of this burning and write something on it. I wanted to protest. I wanted to protest the attitude behind this burning. I didn’t feel it was funny. Neither did I feel any joy in looking at these burnt images.
 

There is something more grave than the obvious, that works behind this burning. It is not one person’s momentary craze that inspired this action. It is a reflection of age-old prejudices and contempt towards feminine body- a masculine attempt to de-divinize the physical form of the opposite sex. Therefore I wanted to register my protest. I don’t know if this would be interpreted in ways I haven’t imagined. It doesn’t matter.

My anger overtakes me, whenever I begin to write on this, and my wit goes for a toss! Ah! But I have to write. And thus writes Sajit. 

There was this jealous, incompetent, patriarchal notion that the feminine is the weaker of the two genders, from the beginning of times (I guess). And to compensate the obviously negative connotation, the ‘strong’ gender added that the weak gender was also ‘gentle and fairer’. Very funny. But jealousy did not stop there. It takes different forms. The ‘gentle ones’ are kept at home to be rotten, uneducated, and unequal. They were not given enough (and equal) opportunities to grow and were not treated well during the day, and ill-treated during the night. The last in the list is a difficult logic, but easy to understand. It is the way gender jealousy works.

Drunk or mad?

Women have stronger immunity systems, faster reflex and deeper intuitions. Very natural, eloquent, and graceful. Jealousy goes a step higher on the ladder. If both the genders were given equal opportunities in a neutral world, on a competitive basis, the results for sure would have been quite different. Therefore, the muscled gender found ways, concocted reasons, invented traditions, and established taboos to prove that the non-muscled and gentle gender ought to be kept under powerful masculine control! Not finished- these notions are institutionalized with the help religion, culture and politics. Wonderful, isn't it?

Now, to keep things under control, more customs, stranger traditions, etc. are bought in. But what if thing go out of control? Ah, there are ways to manage this. Modern bra burning is one such. Mock. Laugh at. Look down upon. Let contempt come from within the enemy. Let destruction be complete. If these measures do not work, there are more in the list. Insult, rape, torture, molestation, blackmail, murder, honour killing, public stripping and beatings, etc. are just a few.

Therefore WE continue to burn. And the rest of US continue to witness in silence. They say our traditions are god-given and therefore eternal, and therefore holy! If we don't change our mindset, we will be remembered as the land where cows roam legally protected while women are brutally objectified and eliminated. If we decide to turn away from such images, we will remain blinded. All of us will!

A Sepia Vision of Life

A day goes by, unnoticed

Like the bloom of a fragrant bud

Sigh! Can I, now that its beyond?

-Oh how I wished for this day-

Faded colours and melting lines

Faces sweeter by forgotten years,

Moments cuter by forbidden errors of past.

A perfect sepia day- but went unnoticed.

A Sepia Vision of life

Want to be reborn- yearned a desire within,

Burned my will and memories.

Left nothing but grey ashes and dark soot-

Yet another image- this one for my tombstone.

Sure clouds'll gather, and rains pour.

For I can smell a storm in the dusk.

I'm used to seeing days pass, 

Making way for storms unawares.

Yet when a day goes by,

What can a man desire,

Whose life had nothing but love and its worries-

Come, night, embrace me in thy cold.

Here ends unnoticed days,

And unforeseen storms, to be sure.

I got my sight- in sepia though.

Of faded colours and melting lines...

The Cling Cling way to a Young Plant’s Birth

Cling. Cling cling! My browser window calls my attention. It is around 11 pm. I wonder who it will be. Cling. Cling cling!

Oh wow! It’s a friend whom I adore. An artist. A free thinker. One who is not afraid of following his dreams. Reckless non-conformist. Ready to try anything. Handsome and young. I am surprised.

‘Hi’ said he.

‘Hi’ said I.

‘What news’

‘Nothing great. How about you?’

‘Nothing great either. Where are you? And how do you feel after all this turmoil? Are you settled and happy?’

I reply these… I like replying to him. I feel a pint of concern and genuine love in the ‘cling cling’ chat that comes up my browser. It is a human conversation.

Somewhere among these questions and answers, I feel a little seed breaking its shell and poking its first leaf out to breath. It is the first sprout of a friendship. And I love it.

I chirp on in my own way and he listens- that too in my own way!

Its 12 am. A new day is born. 


He says, ‘oh, its time to rest. This is my number' (cling cling). 'Leave me your number. I will call you sometime tomorrow.'

Smiles.

Good night.

The sprout is already a young plant. Green leaves and tender sap. A beautiful young plant. 

Good night.

Little things

(For god's sake, this is fiction! Please don't start asking me when did you get married!)

...the little things in life...

Little things. Like the half packet of milk that got spoiled the other day when someone kept the fridge open. And the beggar who spat with hate when I passed him without giving alms. Little things. They make up the whole of life.

Some of the little things I encountered are sweet like gulab jamun. For example, the smile of a little girl I saw on the road. She was a small girl. May be ten years old, but already growing up into a beautiful lass. While I was passing her on my morning walk, she gave me a startling smile. As if to say, hi uncle, I love you, how about you~ I smiled back in haste before she and her mother passed me towards their luxury car. They were rich. Its rare that rich people smile at poor people. I am poor.

a smile matters

Some of the little things encountered are not so sweet unlike gulab jamun. For example, this woman conductor I met on the way to my sister’s home. The bus was not crowded. She took my money, gave me ticket. Then while dealing with another customer, she leaned on me to balance. I didn’t mind. But she- the one who leaned against me- turned around and says, “can’t you adjust and move to the front? What is your intention?”. I was angry. She… but I controlled and said, “you asked me to go back in the bus, I came back. Now are you asking me to go front again? I’m sorry, I won’t”. She must have had bad experiences. Someone must have disturbed/ molested/ attempted to touch her with evil intentions earlier. But I was sad when I was branded as a womanizer/ eve teaser when I had the least of it in my mind. She was a woman. Women sometimes are very negative towards men. I am a man.

Little things. They do matter. Once I didn’t tell my wife that I would be late. When it was too late, I got a call. It was the war cry. The battle had begun while I was away. No more sweet talk, no more allowances, no more concessions. The war is on. Till a truce is called at the expense of my dignity, the enemy stands tall and strong. Little things do make you hungry. For food and for other things.

:)

I have only a few pairs of clothes to wear. Just enough for an employee to survive on his 5 day office schedule. But I need to wash daily, iron daily. One day’s default will cause great stink and embarrassment. So out of love my wife asks me, hello why don’t we buy you at least a pair of undergarments? I promptly say NO. I say no because I am comfortable the way I am. She insists because she is comfortable the way she is and she wants to make me comfortable the way she is. Great. Someone needs to adjust. Compromise. Something of an agreement is necessary. So the next evening, I go silently after office, and get me a couple of not-so-costly undergarments to please my not-so-happy wife. I knock at the door, lifting the packet to make my not-so-happy wife happy. The door is opened and two packets meet saying hello. The packet she lifted up to make her not-so-happy-to-spend husband happy contained five bloody pairs of expensive undergarments. Those with pictures of hunks with huge genitals covered in white fabric. Wearing those men could attract women like flies by a candle. Huh! Who won? Now I am suddenly under-garment-rich. I got seven pairs to attract the gentle sex with! She smiles, gives me a hug and asks me to try them on one by one. Pink first. Oh! These women! I liked the last one the best. I felt like superman inside it… little things…

I asked my father’s account number to transfer most of my first salary to him. A token of my respect for parents. He told me its not necessary. I thought otherwise. It is necessary. They might not need the money urgently. But of course they will need the money some time. And its not about the money. Its about how one should feel about oneself. Its about how one treats others and how one is treated. Its about gratitude and love. While I was confirming the account number to him before doing the transfer he told me, ‘son, its like you already gave me the money. Why to do it. You keep it, you will need it’. Yes I will need money. Perhaps urgently. I will need it. But that’s not important. What is important is this little thing. Making my parents happy.