Saturday, June 25, 2016

Craving

The darkness of morbid evenings! He twisted and turned in his creaking old iron chair cursing the evening, and all the sadness it brought with it. To make the curse perfect, he spat on the dirty wall next to him, and looked for a beedi. He liked a beedi between his index and middle fingers whenever he felt emasculated. And he smoked a lot!

Life was such for him. He started on a high note, but had a few hurdles from the beginning. He graduated from a good University with a first class, and found a job that paid well. But within a year, he fell sick. His backbone was giving him trouble. His company gave him a month's salary in advance and sent him away with an "all-the-best" card. Nobody wanted a liability on them.

He spent his savings in the hospital. When discharged he looked for a job, but ended up getting the smoking habit instead. He did odd jobs, ran errands, taught a few kids and earned a living.

When he looked back into his life, he saw only smoky discreet images. He was never clear about his life. The only proper job he had was sort of a joy for him, but it did not last long. He was worn out and tired of life.

There were no beedis! He felt helpless. He didn't have money. He had nothing to eat. He began wondering about his life as if it were a movie script. Where would the script writer take his life from there? There weren't many characters, there was no heroine and no villain except life itself, no twist and absolutely no beauty! This script would be a disaster. No script writer would hesitate to tear it up and throw it away. " I have reached a dead end", he said to himself with a sad smile.

He decided to go to the shop and beg for a beedi. He was hungry and felt dejected, but all he wanted was a beedi. A simple beedi could set his life alright. Walking half naked to the shop, he thought about the beedi he was going to smoke. A beedi that gave out golden smokey clouds into the despair of his lonely sadness. He could see the impending joy of his life. A beedi was all he needed.

Shop was across the road. He could see it. There were rows of Dinesh beedi packets arranged in lines behind the shopkeeper. A packet cost three Rupees. But he just wanted one beedi. "The shopkeeper would be generous", he thought to himself. "Afterall, I have given him a lot of business", he thought with a spark in his eyes.

He set his hopes high on the goodness of the shopkeeper and crossed the road with the image of a golden beedi in front of him.

*****************

THE shopkeeper had seen the half naked man coming towards his shop. He knew what he was coming for, and kept a beedi ready, along with a few words of advice and scolding. The shopkeeper always scolded him for not making the most of his education and talent. He was capable of achieving much more. He had a smile on his face imagining how he would come and beg for a beedi, and how he would refuse and pretend to be angry.

THUD!

The shopkeeper saw the half naked man landing on the road, right under the tires of a lorry. He turned his eyes away in shock as the lorry ran over him mercilessly and sped away without stopping!

The beedi fell from his hand as blood spread over the road. And a few words of advice and scolding escaped his lips slowly. Those words were emasculated, as if they were craving for a beedi.


Thursday, June 23, 2016

As if There was No Tomorrow

That little dot in his heart began swelling as she disappeared from his sight. The colourless dot became big and black and globular. He felt suffocated. As he strained to follow the dust trail of her car, he realised that she was alone. "I am alone."

Why does this happen all over again breaking my heart the hundredth time into uncountable pieces! He swore as tears rushed to his still eyes and gushed down his stubborn bearded face. "She comes, she goes. I remain here like an island waiting to be inhabited."

The swell in his heart became unbearable. Rubbing his migraine infested temples he staggered back to his bed leaving the front door open. He didn't feel like eating, drinking or having a bath. He just felt dead enough to fall on to the bed. The bed still retained her scent, which saddened him even more.

Should I drink? He asked himself. Or should I have some medicine? He couldn't bother to answer his own questions. In the agony of being alone with a migraine and a blotch in the heart, he disappeared into deep deep sleep.

*****

A few miles away, on a moving car, another migraine was pounding its way into the core of her sanity. She felt like opening the door of the car and jumping out into the heavy traffic. She held a handwritten letter in her hand. One page in black ink. She was clutching it so hard that it crumpled so badly and was wet from the sweat of her palm. He had given it to her before she boarded the car. With thumping heart she read it. She cried so loud that the driver pulled the car over. "My heart would wrench and I will die."

Every time she left him, she would decide to stay the next time. But she was never able to decide. She was sad to leave him alone, but life had to go on. And she had to leave.

She looked at the letter one last time, shredded it in her hands and threw it out the window. Then looking out at the rocky hills by the roadside, she did what she always forced herself to do- turned her heart into stone by holding her breath for a really long time. It helped.

While the tear drops on her cheek dried in the wind, she drifted into deep deep sleep.

*****

At home, in the kitchen, a few black ants were trying to get what was left in a small glass bottle of poison. They too slowed down gradually and slept- as if there was no tomorrow.


Tuesday, May 10, 2016

ജനിക്കും മുന്‍പേ കേള്‍ക്കുന്ന ശിശുക്കള്‍

ശിശുക്കള്‍ക്ക് അവര്‍ ജനിക്കുന്നതിനു മുന്‍പേ, അമ്മയുടെ ഗര്‍ഭപാത്രത്തില്‍ വച്ച് കേള്‍ക്കാന്‍ സാധിക്കും. സാധാരണഗതിയില്‍ ഒമ്പതുമാസം കൊണ്ടാണ് കോശങ്ങളുടെ കൂട്ടം എന്നതില്‍ നിന്നും ലോകത്തേയ്ക്കുവരാന്‍ തയ്യാറായ മനുഷനായി ശിശുക്കള്‍ പരിണമിക്കുന്നത്. ഏകദേശം ആറുമാസം അമ്മയുടെ ഉദരത്തില്‍ വളരുമ്പോഴേയ്ക്കും ശിശുക്കള്‍ക്ക് കേള്‍ക്കാനുള്ള അവയവങ്ങളും അവയെ സഹായിക്കുന്ന തലച്ചോറിലെ വഴികളും തയ്യാറായിരിക്കും. അതുകൊണ്ട്, തങ്ങള്‍ക്കുചുറ്റും ഉണ്ടാകുന്ന ശബ്ദങ്ങള്‍ കേള്‍ക്കാന്‍ ശിശുക്കള്‍ക്ക് ആറുമാസം മുതല്‍ കഴിയും.

ശിശുക്കള്‍ക്ക് കേള്‍ക്കാന്‍ കഴിയും എന്ന് നമുക്കെങ്ങനെ അറിയാം? ചിലപ്പോള്‍ ഡോക്ടര്‍മാര്‍ അമ്മയുടെ ഗര്‍ഭപാത്രത്തില്‍ ശിശുവിന്റെ വികസനം അറിയാന്‍ സൂക്ഷ്മപരിശോധനയ്ക്കുള്ള ഒരു ഉപകരണം കടത്തി പരിശോധിക്കാറുണ്ട്. അതിനോടൊപ്പം ഒരു ചെറിയ മൈക്രോഫോണ്‍ കൂടി കടത്തുക വിഷമമുള്ള കാര്യമല്ല. അങ്ങനെ ശിശു എന്താണ് കേള്‍ക്കുന്നത് എന്ന് നമുക്ക് കേള്‍ക്കാന്‍ കഴിയും.

എന്താണ് ശിശു കേള്‍ക്കുന്നത്? അമ്മയുടെ ഹൃദയസ്പന്ദനം. ധമനികളിലൂടെ രക്തം കുതിച്ചൊഴുകുന്ന ശബ്ദം. വയറ്റിലെ മുരടലുകള്‍. പിന്നെ അമ്മയുടെ ശബ്ദവും. അമ്മ സംസാരിക്കുമ്പോള്‍ അവളുടെ ശബ്ദം ദൂരത്തെന്നപോലെ ശിശുവിന് കേള്‍ക്കാം. നമ്മള്‍ വിരല്‍ ചെവിയില്‍ ഇട്ടശേഷം മറ്റുള്ളവരുടെ സംസാരം കേള്‍ക്കുന്നതുപോലെ. പതിഞ്ഞ, വിദൂരത്തുള്ള ശബ്ദം പോലെ. എല്ലാ വാക്കുകളും നമുക്ക് കേള്‍ക്കാന്‍ പറ്റിയെന്നുവരില്ല. പക്ഷെ, സംസാരത്തിന്റെ ഈണവും താളവും തീര്‍ച്ചയായും കേള്‍ക്കാം. ജനിക്കും മുന്‍പ് ഈ ഈണവും താളവും കേള്‍ക്കാന്‍ ശിശുക്കള്‍ക്ക് പരിശീലനം ലഭിക്കുന്നു. ഇവയായിരിക്കണം ശിശുക്കള്‍ ആദ്യമായി പഠിക്കുന്ന ഭാഷാലക്ഷണങ്ങള്‍.

ശിശു ജനിക്കുമ്പോള്‍ വേറെ ഒരു ജിജ്ഞാസാജനകമായ പരീക്ഷണം നടത്താം. കുഞ്ഞിന്റെ ഇത്തിരിപ്പോന്ന ചെവികളില്‍ ഹെഡ്ഫോണുകള്‍ വച്ച് പട്ടികുരക്കുന്നതും പുരുഷന്റെയും സ്ത്രീയുടെയും അമ്മയുടെയും ശബ്ദങ്ങള്‍ കേള്‍പ്പിക്കും. കുഞ്ഞിന്റെ വായില്‍ ഒരു റബ്ബര്‍ നിപ്പിള്‍ വച്ച് അത് ഒരു കമ്പ്യൂട്ടറില്‍ ഘടിപ്പിക്കും. ശിശു എത്രപ്രാവശ്യം റബ്ബര്‍ നിപ്പിള്‍ വലിച്ചുകുടിച്ചു എന്ന്‍ ഈ കമ്പ്യൂട്ടര്‍ എണ്ണും. ശിശു സ്ഥായിയായ ഗതിയില്‍ റബ്ബര്‍ നിപ്പിള്‍ വലിച്ചുകുടിക്കും. പട്ടിയുടെയും പുരുഷന്റെയും സ്ത്രീയുടെയും ശബ്ദം കേള്‍ക്കുമ്പോള്‍ വലിച്ചുകുടിക്കുന്നതിന്റെ വേഗം അല്പം കൂടുകയും പിന്നെ കുറയുകയും ചെയ്യും. പക്ഷേ അമ്മയുടെ ശബ്ദം കേള്‍ക്കുമ്പോള്‍ കുഞ്ഞ് അതിവേഗത്തില്‍ തുടരെത്തുടരെ വലിച്ചുകുടിക്കും. കുഞ്ഞ് അമ്മയെ തിരിച്ചറിയുന്നതിന്റെ ലക്ഷണം ആണിത്.

ശിശു ജനിച്ച് കേവലം മണിക്കൂറുകള്‍ക്ക് ശേഷം ഈ പരീക്ഷണം ചെയ്യാവുന്നതാണ്. അമ്മയുടെ ശബ്ദം പഠിക്കാന്‍ ശിശുക്കള്‍ക്ക് മാസങ്ങള്‍ കാത്തിരിക്കേണ്ടതില്ല. അവര്‍ക്ക് ജനിക്കുംമുന്‍പേ അതറിയാം.

മനുഷ്യന്റെയും പ്രകൃതിയുടെയും ഓരോ അത്ഭുതങ്ങള്‍!


Sunday, April 17, 2016

ചുംബനം

പുതുമണം മാറാത്ത നിന്നധരങ്ങളിൽ
ചുംബിക്കട്ടെ ഞാനൊടുക്കം വരേയ്ക്കും.
മരണമാം കമ്പിളിക്കുള്ളിലും പുണരട്ടെ
നിൻ കവിതയിറ്റും സ്വപ്നങ്ങളെ!

നിമിഷാശ്വങ്ങളേ തേരിറക്കുക,
കൊണ്ടുവരികെൻ പ്രണയിനിയെ,
പ്രേമലോലമീ കവിത മായും മുമ്പേ
ഈ മനോഹരസന്ധ്യ മായുംമുമ്പേ.


Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Dripping with Love

My love, I'm dripping with love.

Through the mornings that miss you
And evenings that crave for you
My fingers and my veins thirst
And I begin dripping with love for you.

Those moments of affection filled silence
You and me over the misty lone coffee.
Wish I was there, sweating our passions off
Knowing heavens chose us to be.

And, thinking of you far far away
Missing your aroma moment by moment
Disintegrating in memories bit by bit,
My love, I'm still dripping with love for you.
From here

Friday, February 12, 2016

A bilingualism research question

We know children learn languages very easily, and do it 'perfectly'. An adult tries to learn a language for years and most of the time, fail miserably or only partially succeed. Why do children learn so well?

Brain plasticity is cited as a reason, in relation to Critical Period Hypothesis of Lenneberg. Research has proved that delayed development of pre-frontal cortex in infants result in a delay in cognitive control. Delay in cognitive control results in facilitation of convention learning. After all, language is a set of conventions!

So, it is like saying that children learn languages easily because they lack cognitive control. Now, that is very interesting. If lack of cognitive control facilitates acquiring conventions, why do we make a lot of rules about languages and try to learn these rules instead of the language as such? Aren't we doing it the unnatural way? Instead of doing away with cognitive control, we use cognitive control excessively in order to learn languages.

To learn a language, what we need to do is very simple- lose our cognitive control. That is all we need to do.

How do we lose our cognitive control and become childlike so that we learn faster and save a few years of our lives? This is the research question in Bilingualism or Multilingualism.


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